I had my series of up and down, going through hell and back and when I find myself back in the light knowing in a matter of time I will fall back into my hellish world. Growing up I always felt I never truly belonged in this world, I know I felt it because I … Continue reading Never Meant to Belong

I grew up with a love for music, and as I grew older my music taste expanded beyond what I grew up with, always believed in as I always found it to be so true, "When you’re happy, you enjoy the music. When you’re sad you understand the lyrics" I can listen to something and … Continue reading My Infinite Playlist

My thanks goes to my friend Amanda, who reminded me that I am not alone, and put me on the right path to figuring myself out.💜 I remember the day that I started feeling more lost and lone, more than I ever had, the day that I discovered the only thing that could soothe me … Continue reading Becoming Me…

As I throw my thoughts out there into the void, not wanting an answer, I often find myself wondering more days than none. Wondering why, why lately I have been finding myself more and more lost in a world, in a world I always knew I never belonged in. Feeling like every time I feel … Continue reading My Eternal Fight With My Inner Demons

As I start the new school year (my sophomore year in high school), feeling like I’m slowly beginning to fit into my own little world, a world I made for myself. I did something that was at the time out of character for me, I enrolled into a class, a class I myself was surprised … Continue reading Found A World, A World Where I Belong

Not long ago I discovered something that all of a sudden everything, well not everything but things that filled in the gap of why I never felt like I belonged in my family. I can’t tell you why I was told this little piece of knowledge but it helped me to see things in a … Continue reading Defining My Life On My Terms, Finding My Way To Belong

As I graduated Junior High, I moved out of my grandparent’s house and in with my father in San Diego. It wasn’t easy for me to move in with my dad, but after I was abandoned from my mother and wanted to get back at my mother knowing her dislike for my father, I told … Continue reading Growing Up Transgender Part 4, My High School Years: Freshman Year